After a while what you thought was temporary becomes real! The relationships you thought would never change do! You eventually start to build your own life! They eventually stop missing you! But I still live for their dreams... Attempting always to accomplish what I wanted initially and what they push for now.... I could have chosen the "normal" path.... Stayed in my little home town, got a husband, had kids..... Maybe then they'd be proud! Maybe then they'd be excited to see me......
I've realized after five years the people who used to care still do....... However, emotions have changed.... They've become so distant and I've become a waste of their income! This story is sad but true.... Every story ends with a tale of thieves and a rescued princess.
I'm happy here! I love my life and I love the place I live.... I love that I'm the first person in my family to have an undergraduate degree. Phone calls consist of "when are you moving home" instead of how are you. I'm not moving home. I pray daily I'm not shunned for that. I've realized I've been away to long to turn back the clock... I never want to be that person again.... I have the most amazing family and I'm so grateful for all the inspiration and support I've received in the last five years, throughout my life. I do now, for the first time since I left home realize that those family bonds will never be the same. Relationships take effort from both sides to maintain. It's the strangest thing how the one aunt you've lived the furthest away from the majority of your life becomes your strongest ally. She gets you, because she was once you. I've begun the process of building my own family. Or rather, they have began the process of unifying themselves. They have been doing it for years, without my recognition. Team Smash-as they are called are thicker than thieves and stronger then blood. I wouldn't trade them for all the lemons in the world!
Sincerely,
Smash
I've realized after five years the people who used to care still do....... However, emotions have changed.... They've become so distant and I've become a waste of their income! This story is sad but true.... Every story ends with a tale of thieves and a rescued princess.
I'm happy here! I love my life and I love the place I live.... I love that I'm the first person in my family to have an undergraduate degree. Phone calls consist of "when are you moving home" instead of how are you. I'm not moving home. I pray daily I'm not shunned for that. I've realized I've been away to long to turn back the clock... I never want to be that person again.... I have the most amazing family and I'm so grateful for all the inspiration and support I've received in the last five years, throughout my life. I do now, for the first time since I left home realize that those family bonds will never be the same. Relationships take effort from both sides to maintain. It's the strangest thing how the one aunt you've lived the furthest away from the majority of your life becomes your strongest ally. She gets you, because she was once you. I've begun the process of building my own family. Or rather, they have began the process of unifying themselves. They have been doing it for years, without my recognition. Team Smash-as they are called are thicker than thieves and stronger then blood. I wouldn't trade them for all the lemons in the world!
Sincerely,
Smash
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